Psoriasis Update

My dermatologist originally gave me a steroid cream, and another cream to put on my psoriasis and they worked ever so slightly for the first week, and then stopped. I continued using them anyway to give them time to work, but my psoriasis just exploded everywhere!

When I called the dermatologist, she didn't have any appointments for like a month out. Instead I asked my regular doctor when I went in for my next depo shot if she could give me Clobetasol. A friend of a friend used to work for a dermatologist and had suggested it, so I figured why not? It's another steroid cream.

My regular doctor got it for me, and it worked amazingly well! Seriously, I should have taken before and after pictures of the biggest one on my elbow, but that's kind of gross and probably not something you want to see. You would be amazed though. Problem is, I can only use it for two weeks at a time. In between using it, it exploded even more!

My scalp is probably the worst. It's 80% of my scalp, I'd say. It's so freaking itchy, but I can't help scratch it! That just makes it look I have dandruff. Actually, I wish I did have dandruff. That would be SO much easier to get rid of. I have been using Neutrogena's T/Gel (Stubborn Itch) and it only works for about 8 hours. It smells awful, but the menthol in it feels amazing.

I heard about a clobetasol shampoo, which I'd love to try but instead we are trying a pill now. I'm praying this works, because my self-image is so low right now. I've been losing weight, and I was really starting to feel good about myself again. Then this happens. It's like I'm not allowed to have confidence in myself, because if it's not one thing it's another.

I've been snacking way too much as a result, because I pretty much stopped caring. I've gained back 3 pounds. :( I don't know what else I can do but hope the dermatologist knows what she's doing. I do everything else I should. I use moisturizing body wash, in-shower lotion, and then regular lotion. The only thing I can't do is soak in the bath tub because we only have a stand-up shower.

It just all really sucks, and it's really depressing me.