Baby stuff on pinterest

Yeah, I've been pinning a lot of baby stuff haha. It's because it will be safe to start trying in 6 weeks if we want to and there's just so many awesome things out there (from photo ops, to nurseries, to practical advice). We might just stop trying to prevent a pregnancy at that point and whatever happens, happens. I don't know.

I feel like we are still teenagers and that it's crazy to even be thinking about this stuff. It's hard seeing myself as a mom or Steve as a dad, but at the same time... I can totally see it. It will be fun to watch Steve turn into a dad, too, I think.

I feel like we're ready because Steve obviously has a stable job with the Air Force with some of the best insurance. I could quit my job and we'd still be able to pay all our bills and put money into savings. At this point, I really would have to quit because day care costs what I make each week. Stupid retail. Why spend time away from my baby if it evens out? Maybe to socialize at work? I don't know. But I'm already considering quitting anyway because we call the police so much at my store (for perverts, pedophiles and of course theft). But I also really want to focus on my dreams of getting a degree in business, really learning photography and photoshop and of course, getting a nice camera.

So I feel like we're not ready because I want to get started on classes. There are big purchases we still want to make, and I feel like a baby would take those things away.

However, my parents are 4 hours away. My grandparents and aunt 12. One of my cousins, 2 hours. When the day comes, I call my dad to tell him I'm heading to the hospital and he can be here in a snap! I don't want him (or anyone, but Steve) in the room during delivery, but I want him to be the first person let in and able to hold him/her. Having a baby now before Steve gets orders somewhere else, will give me the best support during my pregnancy, and first few years.

And you know that whole ticking thing with the biological clock!