You Can't Have Both

I went to the doctor a few weeks ago to talk about my health and I also told her we had just started trying to conceive.

She stopped what she was doing, looked at me and flat out told me I can't have both. I need to focus on one or the other.

So, we are no longer trying. We will start again in the fall. Finances are tight right now until we can get our car loan transferred to our own bank in February and then I want to focus on getting a few smaller debts paid off this year while building up our savings. I think my doctor visit was perfect timing. I'm glad she was so upfront about it, too.

I'm still not taking the methotrexate pills for my psoriasis, and I'm not on any hormonal birth control either. I figure I can let my body get back to normal in the meantime. 

Over sharing

Only a few people I know in real life (and none of them are family) read my blog. So I feel safe talking about the baby stuff here.

Do you find it weird to learn your friends/family are trying for a baby? I mean, there's just one way most people make a baby...

So I'm super uncomfortable with letting anyone know that we are now trying. Which makes me realize that the internet has turned people into over-sharers...

Not looking forward to...

comments... and Facebook when I get pregnant.

People annoy the crap out of me when they give unsolicited advice. And if a pregnant girl says something as simple as "I'm tired." Then here comes the "just wait" x 100 or "join the club."

Image from this Etsy shop

I will have a shirt just like that. It will also say, "I do not want your advice unless I ask for it."

And so, I'm thinking I may not announce to Facebook when I become pregnant. There might just suddenly be pictures of a newborn. Hahaha. Of course, I would announce to my blog as soon as both of our parents are made aware. :) 

Anyway, thoughts on Facebook and pregnancy? Thoughts on unsolicited advice?

Annetta

My husband and I are in different rooms, but within hearing distance.

All of a sudden I hear "Annetta"

"No." Is my immediate response.

We both knew he was throwing a baby name out there even though it's been a few weeks since we last talked about it. Haha.

"You don't like Annetta?"

"No. Where did that come from?"

"Assassin's Creed."

*face palm*

Doctor Appointment

Sorry it's been so long. I've been meaning to write this for awhile, but then I had an appointment scheduled for Tuesday and decided I would wait until after that. Well then I got sick and didn't have the energy to even sit here and type this.

This is your warning. The next paragraph will probably be TMI. Sorry. You may skip it and not miss anything. It's technical stuff for me to remember.

I've been on Depo Provera for 2.5 years. During the first 3 months I had 1 period and then the rest of the time I had slight spotting here and there. I had my last shot at the end of February so it was in effect until the end of May. I have not had my period since going off of it. I went to the doctor for my well woman check, but also to discuss this. She immediately tried to leave, and when I stopped her to talk to her, she had one foot out the door the entire time. Pissed me off. But she won't even do anything until it's been 6 months without a period (it's been 4 currently). At 6 months, she will put me on a birth control pill for 3-6 months and that is supposed to get things started again. And that is what I don't get. Why can't she put me on it now? I could wait another 3 months. I don't think I'll be able to get pregnant anytime soon because I'm not ovulating... but

We are going to stop trying to prevent a pregnancy next month. The methotrexate for my psoriasis will be out of my system for the full 3 months as of November 1st. So it would be safe for me to get pregnant.

And speaking of my psoriasis, my skin is doing pretty good without the medication, but my scalp has just exploded with it! It's driving me crazy! So I need to make an appointment with a dermatologist and maybe get another $400 bottle of shampoo. Yay for tricare! :)

Baby stuff on pinterest

Yeah, I've been pinning a lot of baby stuff haha. It's because it will be safe to start trying in 6 weeks if we want to and there's just so many awesome things out there (from photo ops, to nurseries, to practical advice). We might just stop trying to prevent a pregnancy at that point and whatever happens, happens. I don't know.

I feel like we are still teenagers and that it's crazy to even be thinking about this stuff. It's hard seeing myself as a mom or Steve as a dad, but at the same time... I can totally see it. It will be fun to watch Steve turn into a dad, too, I think.

I feel like we're ready because Steve obviously has a stable job with the Air Force with some of the best insurance. I could quit my job and we'd still be able to pay all our bills and put money into savings. At this point, I really would have to quit because day care costs what I make each week. Stupid retail. Why spend time away from my baby if it evens out? Maybe to socialize at work? I don't know. But I'm already considering quitting anyway because we call the police so much at my store (for perverts, pedophiles and of course theft). But I also really want to focus on my dreams of getting a degree in business, really learning photography and photoshop and of course, getting a nice camera.

So I feel like we're not ready because I want to get started on classes. There are big purchases we still want to make, and I feel like a baby would take those things away.

However, my parents are 4 hours away. My grandparents and aunt 12. One of my cousins, 2 hours. When the day comes, I call my dad to tell him I'm heading to the hospital and he can be here in a snap! I don't want him (or anyone, but Steve) in the room during delivery, but I want him to be the first person let in and able to hold him/her. Having a baby now before Steve gets orders somewhere else, will give me the best support during my pregnancy, and first few years.

And you know that whole ticking thing with the biological clock!

Baby Promises

(No I'm not pregnant and no, we're not trying)

I promise to throw you into anything and everything until you find your passion. Once you find your passion, we will do everything we can to fuel that fire in you.

Monday Love

I love you because you're already excited even though it's still another year off.

You don't want to do anything except spend time with me when you get home (which is this Saturday)! Hooray!

Baby talk

I've been on the birth control shot Depo Provera for about 2 years now. I have loved loved loved being on it! I haven't had a "time of the month" since I started it 2 years ago! It's been amazing! But I got my last shot in February. We're going to start trying to get pregnant in the Fall when we're settled wherever we go. This plan may change if we get sent overseas. I'm uncomfortable with the idea of having my child in another country, even if it is on a base.

While Steve is gone, I will be letting my body get back to its normal, natural state. I'm also on Methotrexate to manage my Psoriasis. I plan on stopping that in June. It's recommended you're off of it for 3 months before trying to get pregnant as it is known to cause birth defects. Which means I get to look like a freak until and throughout my pregnancy! Woo! <-- sarcasm.

I'm hoping I do get pregnant right away, but things never go my way so who knows. I really just wanted to document this and let our future child know when he/she started being planned. Of course, we've been thinking about this for about 6 months, but only seriously since December when we got a date for Steve to go to basic.

For the record, our child will be an only child. I'm already thinking about what to do after to prevent another pregnancy. There are a lot of options.

If it takes longer than 5 years, we're not having a child.

We already have a boy name picked, but I'm REALLY hoping for a girl.