Volunteering

Steve is thinking about volunteering for a deployment. It's a lot of extra tax free money if he goes. We could pay off our smaller loan completely and either put a big dent in our car loan, or actually build up some savings.

I don't want him to go though. It's super hard when he is gone. I think it will be even more so because he won't be tucked safely inside the US somewhere. I don't have a job to distract me this time either.

I did tell him that whatever he decides, I'll support him and do my best not to complain. It is 100% his decision because it is his life, his safety and he has to actually go through it.

I'd feel guilty asking him to stay if he really wants to go. It's not just about the money, he wants to serve his country.

I'd feel guilty pushing him to go, too. If something happened to him because we wanted more money, I couldn't deal with that. It's different when they make you go on your turn versus choosing to go.

I don't know what my point is... those are just my thoughts.