Day 1: Afraid to be Myself

Something You Hate About Yourself

Where do I begin? No, just kidding. Although, on bad days, the list can be pretty long. Everyone has bad days where they feel like that. Today is not one of those days though, so let's see...

I hate that I'm so scared to be myself around others. Very few people have seen the real me. I can only think of five people, and I've known them all (except my husband) since I was in middle school.

I'm very silly. I make up my own sound effects. I sing at the top of my lungs when my favorite songs come on. I dance around my apartment, with or without my cat, while I'm cleaning or doing the dishes. I'm witty. I'm clever. I'm quick to pick up on a joke, even though I don't always join in. I love baking and cooking in general. I cry when I'm really happy or excited, also when I'm really sad or hurt.

People don't know these things about me because I don't let them. I'm scared of rejection. I miss the closeness that AM and I had when we lived together because she really knows me and she really gets me. I hate how hard it is to make those connections as an adult.

I wish I knew how to let the real me out. I'm not at all serious, or quiet, or reserved. I love singing and dancing! I love playing games, and going on adventures! I mean, look at how much I have moved. I hate being so afraid